Out

Finally got out of the hospital during the afternoon... Freedom after a long confinement... Let's see how things turn out now...

At Hospital... Still...

Been at the hospital for a whole month now. Hospital Perea, 834-0101 ext.2115. Room 215 if you wanna visit... But be warned, I should be out this week. Should stay at a friend's place after I get out... until I get the skin wrap surgery and it heals.

Why? Surgery on right foot. Half was cut off. Thanks to my diabetes and an infection. Happy happy joy joy...

When? Halloween afternoon was the first surgery, drainage. The day after was the second surgery, amputation of the toes.

Now, what? Should undergo skin wrap surgery within the next two weeks. It is suppossed to be an ambulatory thing.

And then what? The plan is to heal, and fix myself up so I can go to the states... When and how... Dunno yet.

Thanks to everyone who has been there one way or another. I deeply appreciate the support and the caring.

Life goes on...

It seems I survived the worst, I do feel better about things going on around me. Vierna is happy, as well as the mage. Raven had said things that put me to take action(thanx for the advise), and the Whitewolf crew have been very supportive towards me as well(thanx guys). Saturday we played from 3 pm till 11 pm. We had fun, they know how I felt these few weeks so they are, like they say, "on a mission" to see me happy at least for these last weeks that I will be here in PR. They are younger than me, so I'm the old wolf in the pack, there for they think is their responsability to take care of me while I'm with them. They always ask me if I'm ok, if I took my pills, if my legs hurt. I never thought that these kids will care much about someone they barely know, I wander, what have I done to deserve such charity from these younglings? They seem sad that I'm leaving. I first thought that it was because there will be one less character in the game, but boy I was proved wrong. They really enjoy my company, Anthony & Xiomy wants me to be in their wedding, Milton was also upset, Willard too, Tammy almost cried, and Emilio told me that he never had so much fun like he did with me. Saturday was very emotional to me. Sunday got a call from Anthony and ask me what I was doing; nothing. So he arranged for us to play in the afternoon, since I told them that Saturday was the last day I was gonna play because the possible operation in my eye. Cool beans!!! So, at 3pm they pick me up and headed for more action. We played till 9pm. If Saturday was emotional, imagine Sunday... We barely play, we mostly chat, Xiomy cooked Spaggeti and meat(my complements to the chef). We had fun. I had fun, I was my self, so everyone was laughing the whole afternoon. It seems that is what they wanted, so they got it. I'm glad they would do these for me, they know I'm lonely, I really like that. Thanx for the wonderful weekend, and I hope we can hang out before I leave. Thank you very much...

Everything crumbled...

I let everything crumbled down w/ Vierna. I know I'm the bad guy of the movie, so everyone should just say it " Groundel, you asshole!!!"
That should be the least I deserve from all, specially from her. Bad decisions, I'm good at those. Srewing up, noone can beat me at that. Right now I'm doing my worst to see if the angel of death pays me a visit, but not even him likes me. I started smoking again, what I peomise I wont do anymore. Vierna, you have someone good at your side now, you should forget about the one person who cost you pain, the worst person in your life, me. I don't want that this last month that I have here to be of pain to you. what is all this stuff about that I don't appreciate you and all the things you have done for me. You are wrong. Anyway, I know you wont believe anything I wrote here, but now I fill lighter about writing this. And the thing about the scrapbook, I said it out of anger, I know the hard work and dedication you put into it, I will never, ever, get rid of those. I love them, since I cannot love you anymore. Hopefully things will turn out good for both, I will still take a bullet for you, gladly...
See you around, and don't worry about me that much, I don't deserve it.
Bye!!!

Hell-o!!

I have an ability that I take lightly, it's called "Screwing Up Everything"(hey, Let's not be sick-minded about this).
But as always, I'm lucky enough that things work out at the end. Is not that I don't know how to do things, is that I know is wrong and I do it anyway.
for those who got hurt in the proccess, I'M REALLY SORRY!!!!
That's all...

Almost a month...

Almost a month has passed...
1. I got back together with Vierna
2. Haven'tfound a job
3. Saw a couple of cool movies
4. Played the Sims 1 again
5. Got back together with Vierna
6. Celebrate Diego's B-Day
7. Called my childhood friend Big John over the States and talked a while
8. Reserving my clases for next semester
9. Played Werewolf Dark Ages
10. kicked my own ass in monopoly(yeah baby!!!)

Arrrggg...X-Men sucked!!!
AGF please let more creative people direct movies and give them the courage to do what's right with the right characters at the right moment. Thank you!!!

The salmon or the river...

It has been so far a good vacation. Yesterday, Vierna and I saw M.I.III(surpisingly good) and had some Coke with "Bollitos Rellenos"(someday I will tell you what it is). Today, Raven and I went to pay the cell bill and had breakfast at El Meson. I enjoy her company very well. Also vierna will finish the decoration for Kinder Graduation. Tomorrow, nothing planned. Friday, beach day at Guanica(fun). There is room for more mages and rouges to this mission...(LS, that means you!!!) Raven joined in as well as her younglings. Me, have done well so far... no worries...Vierna suggested for us to get back together. I love her*, but would I do good this time? I hope so. I like alot her company and the way she shows me love is unbelievable. So, AGF give me what ever it takes to make her happy. See you soon...







*sujeto a que me lleves a comer "Bollitos Rellenos" otra vez.

Mother's Day?

I salute the many mothers out there that have take care of their young ones. It is great honor of knowing some of this humans in person, share many of their thoughts and time. To those who know Groundel, my best wishes in their day. Many things happen this week. Finals are eradicated. The crisis may be solved next week. A relationship broke apart for the better good(maybe).
My support to those in pain, the AGF will bright the way to happiness as he always has...
I'm sure LS is a strong elf, for she showed me her strengh in many ways. Popu also has surpassed many tragedies as well and survived. We have to keep in mind that the world spins, sometimes faster, sometimes slow, but we will never know the next turn...
As for me, I never take sides, I feel dissapointed. Maybe things were too much to handle, and added stress could have triggered unwanted feelings towards one another. I hope that in the future I hear progress...

Final's Week...

Finals finally approach the sence (like this place is not fucked up already), leaving me with study nights and eternal stress during the day. So far, so good. Math tests are all the same. Professors say that as long as you know the numbers and what the can turn into after aritmethical equations and formulas, you will be OK (fuckers...). Anyway, have been showing my talents as a cartoonist this weekend. Drawing characters from Disney movies like Nemo and Sebastian from Little Mermaid, I was amazed myself. Well, it's only Monday, and have to study for the rest of the week. So long... tired... need bed... AGF help... please...

No tienen madre

Today in Divine Revelation (Theology) I received the enlightment of my Ancient God of Fire, called AGF for practical reasons... And it goes like this:

In my so called private catholic college none of the professors can achieve proper communication because they think they are better than ants. Therefore they wont submit themselves to the humilation of performing a sacred ritual that requires proper communication between themselves... and rubbing their asses together while jumping with joy as the fire hits them.

Two final tests, same hour, same day, very different subjects: Commercial Math & Theology... WTF? I know that AGF wants to test my skills, but I am not worthy... really...

Mother gave me khaki pants (another WTF) but that turned out ok... I strayed from my destiny as a fire elemental as I got dressed like any other human, or better yet, I look as an IT tehnician (well, Vierna & Coriolis, be proud)(And growing).

Destiny rewarded me today with a free breakfast and a joyride full of the colors of this cursed land. Today is Day 1 of the Puerto Rican government shotdown crisis. The city looked as if George Romero were around directing one of his movies... the city was dead, traffic was dead, people looked dead... the government was dead... Apocalipse is coming soon, as foreseen with the 6-6-6 prophesy. In our government simply put "no tienen madre".

AGF, let your wrath be felt in their brains so there is some enlightment that will get us out of this mad crisis soon!

Groundel's Cave

After being for week and a half with celulitis in my right leg, I discover that if I ever loose both legs, I could still walk with my butt (and I did too). I could not believe that it happened, my plans were destroyed. I was gonna work that hole week so I had $$$ in my pockets. I also had some stuff to do at Vierna's house in Hormigueros plus all the assigments from the university. At least I spoke to my professors and there was no problem. I'm catching up with time, but it seems that there won't be much to enjoy...
Puerto Rico is in a crisis!!! Public schools will be close next week! Most of the government offices will close also. Those who work for the government (like Vierna), will have almost 2 month without work & will not get paid either. "The Island of Enchantment"(as we call it) will be no more. Probably the States will send a sindicate to rule over Puerto Rico (good!). We deserve no less... Let the Ancient God of Fire cleanse this mess and purify it with his wrath...

Groundel's Cave

Keeping busy. College is great, Inositol also.
Presentation tomorrow in bussiness ethics and 2 tests on Wednesday(bussiness math & theology). Helping Vierna with anything I can help her with. Like Nizz're would say: "Oh Vierna, what big staff you have, oh, it's a rake. Nevermind..."
Anyway...
Ancient God of Fire,
Give me the knowledge to proceed in life,
the strengh to keep fighting,
the power to be always diligent and a good citizen,
and show me the way to be your always faithful follower...
Inositol is doing the rest...
;P

Groundel's Cave

Tree months has passed...
Not much to tell, only that I have enrooled en la catolica of Mayaguez and that Im taking natural anti-deppressive pills and that Im part of the 93% of the population of PR living of cupones and that the fact that I find no job, well...its a long story, but Im no storyteller, so bit it!!!

"Happy" New Year!!!

Welcome year 2006...
hopefully we can get along than last year.
2005 was mean, but there was also "happy" moments,
like when Vierna and I went to Disney and Universal Studios in Orlando, and got to see the rest of my family, not to mention my ancestor's grave.
Also Vierna got her new haven over Hormigueros(thinks look bad in the beggining but it will get better Vierna). This year I have many goals to accomplish, some I've been dragging with me since 2001, but at some time the dragging will stop.
X-mas was OK. I got a couple of things that I need it.
Well, I will keep praying to TAGOF for the strengh I need to succed...
And for the rest of you that need the strengh also...