Everything crumbled...

I let everything crumbled down w/ Vierna. I know I'm the bad guy of the movie, so everyone should just say it " Groundel, you asshole!!!"
That should be the least I deserve from all, specially from her. Bad decisions, I'm good at those. Srewing up, noone can beat me at that. Right now I'm doing my worst to see if the angel of death pays me a visit, but not even him likes me. I started smoking again, what I peomise I wont do anymore. Vierna, you have someone good at your side now, you should forget about the one person who cost you pain, the worst person in your life, me. I don't want that this last month that I have here to be of pain to you. what is all this stuff about that I don't appreciate you and all the things you have done for me. You are wrong. Anyway, I know you wont believe anything I wrote here, but now I fill lighter about writing this. And the thing about the scrapbook, I said it out of anger, I know the hard work and dedication you put into it, I will never, ever, get rid of those. I love them, since I cannot love you anymore. Hopefully things will turn out good for both, I will still take a bullet for you, gladly...
See you around, and don't worry about me that much, I don't deserve it.
Bye!!!